I'm afraid of so many things:
I'm afraid of my parent's reaction (on Tues>.<) they're going to LEGIT KILL me and I'm going to be restricted to no end. They're going to be very, very pissed at me. I don't know what to do. The saddest thing is, I can't escape from this horrible reality I created for myself. If I only tried harder, I wouldn't be worrying right now *sigh* Regretss. I wish I could go back in the time and change this because the built up of fear is going to literally kill me.
I'm afraid of tomorrow...so much. I mean, I can take lunch...but tomorrow night we have a WE concert which I would normally be like ohh yay!...especially since we don't have to dress formally. But the fact that Jamie's not there only proves one thing: I'm going to be alone with no one to talk to. I hate sitting alone, I hate standing from the side observing, I hate standing there by myself as if I have no friends (Which I don't.) I hate being lonely and there's really nothing I can do about it. If I approach someone and try to talk to them, they're only going to either: insult me, ignore me, or get annoyed by my presence. I don't know what to do anymore, someone please help me through this tough time.
After spending my whole week listening to KPOP, I loooove BiGBaNG<33 so much moree! G-Dragon & Seungri. ♥
Yeah, I wish I was Korean, but I'm not. :\ it's okay...being chinese is close enough...I'll just have to learn KOREAN on my own -sigh- :P I already know a few: SARANGHAEYO. ♥
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