GLEE FINALE♥

i LOVED the finale of GLEE..but it left me hanging.
For like this whole long weekend, I was obsessed with Glee<3. It was like my life.
Darn, if only I could be on the show so that I could meet Cory Monteith<333. Omigosh he's so adorable! :)
FINCHEL. ♥ I'm a BIG supporterr yeaaahhh~!
Yeah memorial day was alright.
The whole week was alright.
I just wish something exciting could happen. My life has pretty much become boring as anything.
Schedule ::
-TUMBLR
-Study for finals
-(Badminton?)
-Piano
-Eat
-Shower
-Sleep
[xRepeat]

GO TO HELL.

people are ridiculous.
everything was going goood.
my shorts were a bit short (first mentioned by amy) so i found out what room ms. alfonzo was in and avoided it.
then comes period 11. almost the last period.
so i turned around and i was talking to retard bryan and i'm like, "why are you wearing jeans? it's really hot.."
he's like, "yo'ure shorts are too short. GLORA'S SHORTS ARE TOO SHORT GLORIA'S SHORTS ARE TOO SHORT" over and over again until madame bitch finally hears. instead of warning me, she goes and writes me up for short shorts (and this is the first time this EVER happened to me.) i heard you get central detention for crap like this. so i was really nervous. at that moment, my biggest wish is was to fucking execute bryan for his obnoxiousness that almost got me detention. when i left, i decided maybe i want to ditch this and go to the bathroom. luckily, i bumped into manika and she told me otherwise and comforted me. that's what friends are for, right? :) thanks manika, loveeyouu for being there for me :)
then i finally decided i would go to the office where the principal said it was alright and i should just go to my gym locker and change really quickly. gosh, she's so nice! i'm SO glad she's our principal! then i realized i had another 10 minutes of class left. i didn't want to go back so i ditched the last 10 minutes spending it in the bathroom. i was still so freakin pissed off.
then i went to math to bitch about it...but then i was like, 'ah whatever. its just short shorts.'
then madame bitch comes into my MATH class and CHECKS if i changed. like, what the fuck is you're problem, you fucking bitch?! -___-i was bout to blow but i held it in.
then when i got home, instead of being encouraging or trying to comfort me, my dad goes like, "don't wear short shorts. you deserve it." i was like, "they weren't even THAT short." he's like, "obviously they were or else why would you get in trouble?" you know i thought parents were people you could rely on for comfort, but apparently not. i guess it was kind of wrong for me to compeletely explode at him but that was like the button for my volanic explosion. i was at the epitome of anger.
some people are fucking idiotss...im so fucking pissed that i was about to personally go over to retard's bryan's house and execute him personally. this might sound crazy, but that's how fucking pissed off i was.
the worst part is he got off withoutgetting in trouble at all when it's clear that he's the only dumbshit that always causes trouble.

Drifting.

First it was kind of notable, now it's so obvious.
I'm just constantly drifting away from these seniors that I used to be so close to.
I don't know how it happened, but it did and it's killing me. First I lost my bestfriend, but then...I lost the few that I took for granted. You never know what you have until you lose it.. :|
I just hope that things will work out and that they'll come to my sweet 16 and we can...start coming back together again. Guys, I just want you to know that even though you might enjoy the distance, I'm missing it.

Complicated.

I must be in a recession period right now. I'm just so confused.
All honesty, I don't like anyone right now because I don't even know who to like.
Everyone seems to be occuppied, ya know? So my options are nearly at zero.
I'm a bit confused and don't really know what I'm doing.
If you say you love me, I'd run to you in open arms :(  -sigh-

Glee || Prom || Mmm.

The Glee episode tonight was so intense. It was giving me goosebumps. That's how intense it was. I'm so glad that Finn really cares about Rachel..but I hate how it took another guy for him to realize that he was taking her for granted. ahhh loveee. Scary what it can do to us, right?

I've beeen having, the time of my life..and I owe it all to you. :) ♥

Yeah, even though we're strangers now and we barely talk to each other I want to thank you. I've only been looking at the negative side of things and complaining but honestly, I'm truly happy. I'm happy that you appeared in my life..even if it's only for a year or so. Thank you for making April the best months of my life. I'll never forget meeting you and our friendship that I care so deeply about. I hope you have fun at Prom and make it a night that you'll never forget.

May 9 - FREAKINALLERGIES - Day 9.

I honestly don't know what to do.
I'm not good enough, not pretty enough, not smart enough, not fun enough, not bad enough..omfg-___-

May 8 - FREAKINALLERGIES - Day 8.

First of all,
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY♥ for once my mom's not all mooody :)

I honestly/truly happy for everyone else; but when is it my turn to finally be happy? -sigh-
I don't know what to do anymore.  I really don't. Too many people, but none of them are an option..I think.
So I don't know what to dooo. :(

May 4 - FREAKINALLERGIES - DAY 4

Tomorrow scares me >_< ;; I can't even imagine how horrible the allergies are going to be.
Why can't we just skip tomorrow...blah-_-

What about now?

Ha today. May 3rd. My favorite time of the year! not.
My allergies were extra cruel today =w=. I wonder why.
I remember exactly what happened LAST time this year.
I was at the dentist getting my cavity filled in. That was painful. Physically.
Now it's severe allergies even with the help of medication. Today was extremely uncomfortable. Physically.
Obviously this day is just not my time of year.
I looked horrible today too...wow, everything tells me today isn't a good day. And honestly, it isn't. It never was and it never will be :]
-sigh- who'd knew that from january your life can plummet THAT fast? unbelievable.
Now I'm only living on memories, cuz that's all that's left of us.
I miss how we used to be. Too much. </3

May 2 - FreakinAllergies - DAY 2.

Okay so basically everything pretty much sucks right now.
I don't know what's going on, but it's making me want to leave this earth more and more everyday.
First it's the whole pressure with grades. Of course everyone has to deal with that, but that's not turning out too great. I said I would improve, but I'm not. I'm trying to put in effort, but I get lazy and procrastinate.
Then there's the whole love life issue. I guess it's not really an issue now that I've basically given up since it's May 2nd already.
Then there's allergy crap that I have to deal with daily on top of all the other shit -__-. Allergies are a living hell. I mean my body's so stupid. Why would it "intensely" react to something that's not even harming my body. So, so, so dumbbb.
On top of all of this, it's bestfriends that are causing the most problems. I mean who'd knew?
Let's talk about my guy bestfriend. Oh him. Yeah, we're strangers now. Funny how quickly life can change. I honestly don't know what happened but it definitely has to do with severe drifting and lack of intiative to initiate a conversation. When both people stop trying to communicate with each other, everything just fades.
Then there's my girl bestfriend. Well if you don't want to talk about something, you would let your bestfriend know right? You'd be like, "oh..i don't want to talk about this anymore, let's talk about something else (: " barriers kill friendship, obviously. So it looks like I can't tell her anything now. Great. I guess I'm bringing my deepest darkest secret to grave since even my bestfriend is unwilling to listen to it or shows apparently no interest. I guess Tumblr's always right. "Don't bother telling anyone your problems. 20% of the people don't care, and the other 80% of the people are happy you have them." I guess Tumblr's the only thing you can actually trust nowadays.
Tomorrow. Ohhmy..-___- nevermind. Let's not even get started on that one.

Hello May, I'm hating you already.



we used to be
best friends
that didn't
care what
the other people
thought about us.
now we don't
even talk or
smile at each other
I miss the way we
could talk about
stupid stuff
and laugh