Behind These Twinkling Eyes...

#Here I am, once again. I'm totally into pieces. Can't deny it, can't pretend. Just thought you were the one. Broken up deep inside.

No tears tho.

I loved him first, you stupid bitch.

Dis gurl needs to go.
freshman. omfg. I CANT EVEN...

Jealousy Level Increasingly Rapidly.

#Angela Status.
I've officially become extremely jealous.
I'm turning into Angela, OMG O.O
This is really bad.
But I can't help it,
I'm still mad jealous.
I'm not happy about this.
I'm not happy at all.
I get a break, and it only lasts for 1 day.
But then again, fate came in again and fixed it all.

// When is it my turn to be happy?

BETTER AND READY TO GOO.

I can't believe they would close up my hole if I don't get my dr's note fixed. close my holee? BUT IM THE SECTION LEADER. noooo D: ! so yeah, gotta go fix that.
Anyway, the fever/cough is pretty much gone. Having pneumonia & mono at the same time was just a pain. STaying at the hospital for 6 days was even worse. Every 4 hours, nurses have to come in and check your blood pressure/oxygen level and temperature. It was such a drag. I couldn't even sleep. But the worst definitely has to be the fact that I had to get a blood test every other day. It hurt a lot ahhh :x maybe it was all psychological? lawl. Anyway, my section gave me a cute stuffed dog. [oversized] <3 thank you mellos. LUB YOU. c: after all, we have all of next year..right? Then my bestfrand got people to sign a card. This really contributed to my recovery. The happiness...words cannot describe it. :D

Sick, Sick..go away.

I've been sick for 5 days now. This fever keeps coming back every 4-5 hours. I take tylenol but it just won't go away. I went to the doctor's twice this week and she's prescribing me with all these different pills. I really, really wish that I can better tonight so that I can go back to school tomorrow. I can't afford to miss anymore school days. I don't want to stay home anymore..it's boring and lonely. I don't really know what to do anymore. I feel like the world stopped moving. Please. Go away.

Jar of Hearts.

"Who do you think you are, running 'round leaving scars? Collecting your jar of hearts...tearing love apart." "YOU'RE GONNA CATCH A COLD FROM THE ICE INSIDE YOUR SOUL."

Stop playing hard-to-get. I don't have time for this crap.

No Longer Confused.

I think I know what I want to do now. I'm going to stick with the original plan. No more distractions. No more alterations. I'm going to continue on my way. That one text just made me see the light. Even though it's going to be hard, even though it's going to require a lot more effort...the original plan is the path for me.


...Seniors Nostalgia T.T
I miss you guise...like a lot. Let me go back to freshman year please? There's a lot of things that I have to clean up.

Confused.

I don't know what to do anymore. I don't know what I want. I'm really confused and really wish that I could be more decisive and make the RIGHT choice. I don't want to make a mistake and then regret it forever. I have to choose carefully and consider the rewards or consequences of my choice. Hmm. What to do...