AWKWARDD..

The awkward moment when you're trying to avoid someone you don't like but you fail miserably...

Admiration.

So like in history we're learning about WWII. It's actually quite intriguing! I find it to be a very interesting subject to the point where Iactually PAY attention in class for the first time.
I mean-- is it wrong? Is it wrong that I admire the Facist German leader, himself? His leadership abilities though very tyrannical, seem to impress me in various ways. I know that he's done so many horrible things to innocet people who didn't deserve it at all...but idk.
Maybe it's his odd love story. I find it kind of..inspiring. Eva Braun's loyalty kind of touched me.
Even evil people can fall in love and actually care about someone. It comes across to me as somewhat beautiful.
Personally, I think I'm going insane.

Decisions, Decisions...

I'd hate to admit it but it's the time of year...
marching band is over and i see people i used to see A LOT less.
So the question is should I get attached? I mean, the fact that I'll see people a lot less...that means I'm at a disadvantage already. I kind of am really starting to like him. Now the season's over...it's just that. I don't want it to fall apart. I feel like now we have less and less to talk about...I'm scared. I don't want to let go...but I don't want to get attached either if it's going to fall apart...I don't know what I want. I just wish..I just wish that it could work out. I don't want to be alone anymore.

What's going on...

I don't even know what I'm doing anymore.
Anna, what's happening to me? :x