Okay so basically everything pretty much sucks right now.
I don't know what's going on, but it's making me want to leave this earth more and more everyday.
First it's the whole pressure with grades. Of course everyone has to deal with that, but that's not turning out too great. I said I would improve, but I'm not. I'm trying to put in effort, but I get lazy and procrastinate.
Then there's the whole love life issue. I guess it's not really an issue now that I've basically given up since it's May 2nd already.
Then there's allergy crap that I have to deal with daily on top of all the other shit -__-. Allergies are a living hell. I mean my body's so stupid. Why would it "intensely" react to something that's not even harming my body. So, so, so dumbbb.
On top of all of this, it's bestfriends that are causing the most problems. I mean who'd knew?
Let's talk about my guy bestfriend. Oh him. Yeah, we're strangers now. Funny how quickly life can change. I honestly don't know what happened but it definitely has to do with severe drifting and lack of intiative to initiate a conversation. When both people stop trying to communicate with each other, everything just fades.
Then there's my girl bestfriend. Well if you don't want to talk about something, you would let your bestfriend know right? You'd be like, "oh..i don't want to talk about this anymore, let's talk about something else (: " barriers kill friendship, obviously. So it looks like I can't tell her anything now. Great. I guess I'm bringing my deepest darkest secret to grave since even my bestfriend is unwilling to listen to it or shows apparently no interest. I guess Tumblr's always right. "Don't bother telling anyone your problems. 20% of the people don't care, and the other 80% of the people are happy you have them." I guess Tumblr's the only thing you can actually trust nowadays.
Tomorrow. Ohhmy..-___- nevermind. Let's not even get started on that one.
Hello May, I'm hating you already.
we used to be
best friends
that didn't
care what
the other people
thought about us.
now we don't
even talk or
smile at each other
I miss the way we
could talk about
stupid stuff
and laugh
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